Long time, no write

Hello again.  I'm still here.  Sorry it has been so long since I've written.  I've been in a spiritual place that I couldn't label.  A place that I couldn't analyze or figure out and so, I didn't know how to blog about it.

I know God is at work in my life.  I can't really tell you what I am learning right now because I guess I haven't finished this lesson yet, whatever it is.  I am growing more mature and discovering more of who I am in the different roles I must play.  For a while I was looking to see what God was doing.  Searching for answers and solutions that He hadn't given yet.  I got impatient and felt a little lost, perhaps like a lamb who wanders astray and suddenly finds itself in unfamiliar territory.  Maybe God doesn't want me to analyze spiritual lessons so much.  I will never understand Him completely and my experiences, while they may help you along your journey, are not the same as yours and will not give you a short-cut to the "finish line" of developing your relationship with the Lord.

My husband's health continues to improve.  He got some new shoes that really seem to help with the nerve pain.  The shoes aren't made for helping, just for supporting the foot properly, especially for those who work long hours on their feet.  The nerve pain and tingling in his feet has improved, but is still there.  We are thankful for the improvement.  He is able to do most things without his feet stopping him. :)

Update

The results of the 3 month x-ray were good.  No growth in the lymph nodes, so as the oncologist put it, this was a 'good news' appointment.  We'll see how the next appointment goes.  That is the big one.  At 6 months we'll do a full CT scan and get a better view of whatever is or isn't going on.  I don't have any expectations.  It's too far away and I'm not thinking about it.  It's just on the calendar at this point.

I've made baby steps in spending time with the Lord.  We're talking again and I'm reading my bible again.  Not as regular as it was before, but I will get there.  I have really been working on being aware of my heart-attitude and praying that I would approach life humbly and not pridefully.  I know that I can't figure life out on my own and I don't want to deceive myself into trying.  I also don't want to react to any issues I'm facing from a selfish point of view.  I truly do want to do the will of God because I know that will result in the best possible outcome.  I can't do any of this of my own power.  So, I've been praying little heartfelt requests and giving thanks as I recognize His blessings as my day goes on.