Home sick today, feeling thoughtful. So much has changed in less than a year. Life is completely different than it was. I had asked God to make things clear to me, even if it hurt. He did and boy, did it hurt. Grieving the loss of a job and a way of life is a process. I can't say I am necessarily glad for it, but I have definitely learned from it and am glad for where I am now.
I sit here with a cold. Miserable because I can't take any medication due to the baby. A baby I never believed I would have. God's ways and God's answers to our prayers are so much more than we can fathom.
Not only am I pregnant with this miracle baby. But I might actually get to be a stay home mommy for a little while. It all seems too good to be true and so much more than I deserve. I am so thankful that God doesn't just hand us what we deserve.
Man, what changes that can happen in life. Some events I planned had an impact. Other events I had no plan for: cancer, car accidents, job loss, another baby. Some good. Some not. All growing experiences.
I have no clue where God is taking me. I pray that I can honor Him in it all and not get lost inside my limited perspectives.
