Life seems to always be in flux. Transition seems to be the emphasis in my world as of late. I suppose in raising children that is to be expected. I find myself pondering choices and reflecting on past events in our lives.
The Covid Vaccine is huge right now. I want it to work and be the glorious thing they have tried to make it out to be. I don't trust it. I don't trust the media, the government, or the corporations behind it all. We are playing the "wait and see" card. My hubby may eventually be required to take it for work, but for now he is also waiting. He is concerned about side effects with his auto-immune disease. My in-laws have gotten it, for them it was worth the risk. I don't judge their personal choice in the matter and hope the best for them. Other extended family has already had the virus. Right now, our biggest decision to make is how and when to open our bubble up to participating in some of life's aspects that we really miss.
Our oldest is learning to drive, contemplating where to apply for her first job, and planning on trying out some college courses next fall. She is also going through assessment for potential ADHD. I'm going through this process with her and feel very much unprepared for it all. Having never gone through these experiences before as a parent, we are taking one step at a time in navigating the challenges along the way.
Our second-born will be a teenager soon. She is my quiet one, and I am attempting to make deliberate actions to let her know she is important to me and I am interested in her. Her reserved personality makes it easy for her to "fall through the cracks" and I don't want that for her.
And then we have our "littles". Our preschooler is preparing for kindergarten this fall at home. My thoughts center mostly around what worldly influences we allow into his life and character building. He is starting to be more bold in his singing and I love his sweet little voice!
Our littlest is hitting the terrific two's in the near future. We're preparing for potty training and looking forward to his developmental readiness for more activities and understanding. We're also going through the weaning process. Weaning him is hard for me. It's hard for him too because he has no interest in weaning. He likes the comfort of it and I like comforting him. There's nothing more precious than your little one falling asleep in your arms... But when nursing is no longer for nutritional necessity, it is time to help him learn other ways of spending time with mom and healthier ways to find comfort. He's my last baby (God-willing), and I will miss my baby boy once this chapter comes to a close. At the same time, I am ready for the next chapter too. Ready to have my body back. Ready to focus on our nutritional needs separately, and have more flexibility with his routines.
And then there is the household stuffs. We are still waiting for our tax return. With it, we hope to upgrade our current family vehicle for one that has a working AC and fewer miles! We also have a list of "to do" items that we need to save for and prioritize. There is always something, isn't there?
