The past several weeks have been quiet ones for me. I think I could describe it as a period of time where I lived Psalms 46:10 "Be still and know that I am God." I didn't spend time reading my bible or specifically praying. I simply prayed from my heart in the quiet and still moments of my day, not something I purposed to do, but how it happened. Reading my bible and writing my prayer journal just didn't feel appropriate somehow -even though saying that doesn't seem like it should fit in to a place that God is working.
I lived in a quiet peace of mind. Question at times. Wondering. Waiting for some sort of answer to my lack of direction.
And after a couple weeks, He began revealing something to me. Something I've long fought Him on. Putting Him first in my life. I much prefer my God to be a god who lovingly blesses me, but doesn't demand much from me other than reverence. Then He redefined obedience...and really gave my little brain a thought to ponder!
He told me that I was not being obedient in the command to put Him first. Then He told me what He meant by that. I listened to a few sermons on the radio about obedience, about putting Him first, about what it means to live faithfully. All these little nuggets carried the same themes. I asked God to reveal more. Later that week I felt compelled to seek God in the Word. So I shrugged to myself and decided to obey even though I didn't know what, if anything it would do for me. I went to my Strong's concordance and looked up obedience. There were columns of verses containing the words: obey, obedient, and obedience. I stuck to my original word because it had the shortest list of verses and was the one I felt God was pushing at me. Here are some of the nuggets of truth He showed me:
1. Obedience comes from Faith.
Obedience isn't something I have to have perfected, it is perfected in faith.
2. The righteous will live by Faith.
Faith in Jesus Christ makes me one of God's righteous -not that I am righteous in my own right, but that Jesus's blood payment for my sins covers the sin God might see and when He looks upon me, He sees the perfection of His Son, Jesus.
3. Other godly men have Obeyed God's commands in order to Seek Him.
A new concept to me...seeking God through obedience to Him. Hmmm...
NIV - emphasis mine:
Romans 1:5 "Through Him we received grace and apostleship to call all the Gentiles to the obedience that comes from faith for His name's sake."
Romans 1:17 "For in the gospel the righteousness of God is revealed -a righteousness that is by faith from first to last, just as it is written: 'The righteous will live by faith.'"
HCSB - emphasis mine:
2 Chronicles 31:21 "He [Hezekiah] was diligent in every deed that he began in the service of God's temple, in the instruction and the commands, in order to seek his God, and he prospered."
The last little nugget that tied all of the pieces of information together came a few days later when I decided to read more about Hezekiah and the context of the 31st chapter in 2nd Chronicles. The title of the chapter in my bible was "Removal of Idolatry". Idolatry is putting anything before God, and since I have not fully placed God first in my life, I have idols, not little wooden figures I worship, but other things in my life I have allowed to be more important than God. Now it is a matter of discovering those idols and looking to God for direction in making the changes that need to be made. It's weird to be so peaceful as I am learning new things. My biggest prayer is that I will learn this lesson without having to learn it the hard way.
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