It never ceases to amaze me, the ways God works in my life. Ways I never dared ask or hardly dream. I was looking to hire a simple clerical person to help with data entry part time. Did God send me someone? You betcha!!!
He sent someone who can not only take on those minor time-consuming tasks, but someone who can do so much more! He sent me a confidant, someone with experience who I can look to for ideas, guidance, and affirmation. He knows my needs and dreams so much better than I do, it is unreal.
God is doing something, I don't know what, but I can't wait to find out!
Wednesday, April 17, 2013
Sunday, April 7, 2013
Not by strength, nor by power
I'm finding that staying close to the Lord is the only way I can survive the responsibilities I have been given. When my quiet times with God get neglected, that is when work seems overwhelming and I am more absent with my family at home. When I am honest and upfront with God and strive to develop that relationship, then I seem to fly on unseen wings of grace through even the toughest situations and when I am home, I am much more present and able to forget about the stresses of the day. I don't know what I would do if I were attempting to wear all these hats in my own power.
Zechariah 4:6 "...Not by strength or by power, but by my Spirit, says the LORD..."
Zechariah 4:6 "...Not by strength or by power, but by my Spirit, says the LORD..."
Thursday, March 28, 2013
Boundaries
My job can be overwhelming. Suddenly I am a leader. I make decisions all day, every day. I lack experience and although I'm learning as I go, I truly long for someone who could give me guidance, someone with experience to bounce ideas off of.
I just pray that the Lord will show me what to do. Teach me what I need to know, to give me discernment and courage to uphold my boundaries and be brutally honest and direct if I have to be to maintain my boundaries.
Leading is so complicated. I can't say I'd ever choose this position on my own. Life will never be easy I'm afraid.
I just pray that the Lord will show me what to do. Teach me what I need to know, to give me discernment and courage to uphold my boundaries and be brutally honest and direct if I have to be to maintain my boundaries.
Leading is so complicated. I can't say I'd ever choose this position on my own. Life will never be easy I'm afraid.
Wednesday, March 6, 2013
Always Learning
This past month has been a whirlwind of activity. Being a leader -or rather, becoming a leader -is such a growing process. I am constantly facing challenges that I have never faced before. My plate is full and overflowing with the many tasks that I am responsible for. There is literally not enough time in the day to accomplish it all. Decisions that must be made in split second reactions, choosing my words, which tasks to prioritize and give attention to and which to save for another day. I can have a terrible draining day and an encouraging exciting day all in the same day just depending on the events that occur. I have clients who I must answer to, not only concerning the care provided to their children or the way that the business is run, but also answers to how to be better parents and to increase their understanding of their children. I have teachers who look to me for guidance, direction, techniques and answers in challenging children, running their classrooms, working together and with parents. I have superiors in the financial realm, in the overall operations, in the medical field, in the state government rules and regulations, etc. etc. etc. The list never ends...or at least I don't want to know how long it could go!
And somehow, in all the chaos, all the personal insecurities I face, God has remained faithful and steadfast. I can honestly report that I am living proof that God equips and provides. That God uses the foolish and the weak to accomplish His glory. I simply can't take credit for the ways things have worked out. I take credit for my failures, for the many mistakes and learning curves I am living. I have seen the Lord work out so many seemingly destructive situations into blessings and growth for the company, for my staff, clients, and myself. God is good. Period.
And somehow, in all the chaos, all the personal insecurities I face, God has remained faithful and steadfast. I can honestly report that I am living proof that God equips and provides. That God uses the foolish and the weak to accomplish His glory. I simply can't take credit for the ways things have worked out. I take credit for my failures, for the many mistakes and learning curves I am living. I have seen the Lord work out so many seemingly destructive situations into blessings and growth for the company, for my staff, clients, and myself. God is good. Period.
Saturday, February 23, 2013
Reflecting on Cancer
My hubby's port removal went very well. It is mostly healed now and he is relieved to have the weight of caring for his port removed. Having it gone is changing my perspective. It helps me take a little step away from the mental stress of cancer. I can now hug my husband without feeling the pressure of the port on my cheek. Now I only feel the comfort and strength of his arms. It's the little things, always the little things that make the difference.
With the new year I have to learn a new way of speaking about our experience with cancer. It's no longer last year, it is now "two years ago..." Another small thing, but the more often I say those words, the easier it is to imagine myself saying, "three years ago, four years ago..." Is it truly possible that one day cancer will be just a distant memory of the past? Lord willing, I hope so!
Unfortunately cancer isn't far away. My friend is again facing a possible recurrance and waiting on her test results. Two managers I know are praying for someone close to them: one has an employee who is facing potential breast cancer and another has a loved one with an inoperable tumor. Having gone through it, I have a better sensitivity and compassion for those who are living with this word in their daily lives. God is definitely using the lessons he taught me to be an encouragement for others and it also seems to help me remain humble because I know just how quickly life can change. There is no cocky illusion that somehow I am protected from pain or sickness. I am much more grateful for the blessings God has given me.
With the new year I have to learn a new way of speaking about our experience with cancer. It's no longer last year, it is now "two years ago..." Another small thing, but the more often I say those words, the easier it is to imagine myself saying, "three years ago, four years ago..." Is it truly possible that one day cancer will be just a distant memory of the past? Lord willing, I hope so!
Unfortunately cancer isn't far away. My friend is again facing a possible recurrance and waiting on her test results. Two managers I know are praying for someone close to them: one has an employee who is facing potential breast cancer and another has a loved one with an inoperable tumor. Having gone through it, I have a better sensitivity and compassion for those who are living with this word in their daily lives. God is definitely using the lessons he taught me to be an encouragement for others and it also seems to help me remain humble because I know just how quickly life can change. There is no cocky illusion that somehow I am protected from pain or sickness. I am much more grateful for the blessings God has given me.
Thursday, February 7, 2013
New Surgery
Tomorrow my hubby has an extremely minor surgery to remove the port that has been his support throughout the many blood draws, infusions, and IV medications. It is so minor that his surgeon is going to do it in clinic. This is really good news in the perspective of how well remission has gone since chemo.
Moving past the time for concern in the medical world of recurring cancer is pretty neat, if not a little surreal. This week marks the two year anniversary that the lump was found that started our journey. It's a little hard to fathom that it has been that long. Sometimes it still feels like yesterday. I can remember so much of the emotions of that year, many of them still a little raw below the surface. It is still hard for my husband to talk about his perspective of living with cancer.
I'm glad for the news that the doctor's think we won't need the port anymore. Yet as I write this I hesitate to be happy about it. I still worry about troubles with doing the blood work in the future, and I don't know if I will ever fully trust that the cancer is gone for good. I trust it is gone for now. I wonder if other cancer survivors feel the same way.
Moving past the time for concern in the medical world of recurring cancer is pretty neat, if not a little surreal. This week marks the two year anniversary that the lump was found that started our journey. It's a little hard to fathom that it has been that long. Sometimes it still feels like yesterday. I can remember so much of the emotions of that year, many of them still a little raw below the surface. It is still hard for my husband to talk about his perspective of living with cancer.
I'm glad for the news that the doctor's think we won't need the port anymore. Yet as I write this I hesitate to be happy about it. I still worry about troubles with doing the blood work in the future, and I don't know if I will ever fully trust that the cancer is gone for good. I trust it is gone for now. I wonder if other cancer survivors feel the same way.
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