Learning little lessons one at a time.

Life has been incredibly busy.  My boss is retiring and I am one of the candidates to move into her position.  The bad thing is that since I'm the only candidate from within the company I feel like every move I make is part of a living interview that isn't going to end for another month or more. God has been good to me, guiding me and revealing things I need to know about myself and how I choose to act.  I have a lot of insecurities that have surfaced, but I am also very aware of them for what they are.  I am learning a lot, which I like, but it isn't always a fun process either.  The Lord has been here with me, listening to my groanings and providing for my needs.  Life is overwhelming.  As I am living this interview I am doing my own job and also being given the opportunity to take on the role of the position I have applied for.  God has revealed a lot of what my strengths and weaknesses are.  I have prayed that His will would be done.  I am a willing servant, but I only desire His will because He knows best.  I don't know for sure that this position is definitely where God wants me.  I have stepped through one open door and await His leading to either close or open more doors in this process.  The one thing I know is that this position requires more than what I am on my own.  It requires submission and reliance on the presence of God to work His way in our company.