Tuesday, September 23, 2014

The Important Things

Discouragement is an effective tool.  At least against me anyway.
Losing hope is no fun.  Finding it again is better.

I had my priorities all mixed up.

My Life's Priorities:
God
Husband
Children
Me
Home
Church
...and then work, way down at the bottom!

 My job is simply a job.  The means to an end.  The means to enabling me to be home with my family more than any other job I might take on.   I spent a lot of time searching out options. Ultimately, I could get another job that would even pay similar wages without the responsibilities I bear now.  But the exchange would be less time at home with my family, something I'm not willing to give up.

Recognizing what my priorities are helped to change my perspective and while I'm still muddling through, I'm not as lost.

Saturday, September 6, 2014

Confusing

Self-discovery is the name of the game.  I'm not sure I still agree with my previous assessment of myself.  Hmmm...reading that sentence is ironic and makes me laugh.  Trying to analyze my life and my faith journey may not be the best thing to be doing -only God truly knows what is actually going on.

I'm ready for a change in my life.  I don't know what that change is, but I am ready to move forward and not be stuck in this endless roller coaster.  I am not a person who gets angry, but I did.  I'm not a person who speaks from emotion because I know my emotions can be deceptive.  Somehow I have gotten to this place where I don't even recognize myself in my own behavior.

The question remains -and only time will tell- what change is going to happen and when?