Life and Love with Loss

This is a good place to come to grieve.  My cousin's baby girl passed away this week after a long 4-month battle to try and save her life.  She never got to go home.  Her parents never got to dress her in all the cute little girly outfits.  There is an empty nursery that never got to meet her.  I mourn for their pain as a parent.  I hurt for all the things they don't get to do that every parent dreams of doing with their baby girl.

The part that brings me peace is that they are strong in the Lord and their little baby is now healthy and strong with Jesus.  Knowing that someday they will see her again and that she is no longer struggling is a big comfort.

I read a valuable piece of information this week.  Jesus is our Daily Bread, praying and reading the Word.  He is manna to our souls.  And just like the manna God sent the Israelites, we must gather our Daily Bread each day...one day's Daily Bread is only enough to sustain us for that day.  Each day we need a new helping of Daily Bread.  I learned that from David Wilkerson's Hungry For More of Jesus book.  It was a lightbulb moment for me because I have lived that lesson and never really fully understood it like this before.  God is so good. :)

Indescribable, uncontainable...

God is so, so good.  He fills me with awe and wonder.  Our little human race is so undeserving of the love He has given freely.  Today was a training day at work.  As one of the leaders I had the task of planning out the day's schedule and topics.  God, who is always faithful, enabled our leadership team to accomplish the tasks required for the day despite power outages, personal attacks from broken people, illness and fatigue.  We were called to bring accountability to our organization and boundaries where there had been none before.  It was a daunting task and we were attacked for it, but I continue to be blessed with godly confidence and peace in what was said and presented.

It is such an indescribable feeling to be a vessel used by God to bring glory to Himself.  On my own I would never be the person I was today.  I have so far still to go, so much to learn and discover; yet God is working through me and my counterparts to do mighty things in His Kingdom.  I truly am filled with awe.  It isn't a cocky, self-confident feeling or attitude.  It is a confident peace that God had His way today.  There are no insecurities or self-doubt.  I praise the Lord for the things He is putting into place.  I pray that His will would continue to be accomplished and nothing would be allowed to stand in His way...that I and those who serve along-side me will continue to steadfastly trust and seek Him first, to not stumble or fall to cause others to stumble or fall.  Thank you, Jesus!