Still Struggling

It has been over a month and the spiritual struggle continues.  I'm beginning to delve a little deeper into the Word and while I have enjoyed this recent beginning, discouragement is still a constant companion it seems.  I have ups and downs, but the joy isn't present right now.  I am also still struggling with the physical fatigue.  People tell me I look tired.  I am.  I made a doctor appointment for tomorrow.  I don't know what to expect other than hopefully an informative conversation and probably some tests.  There are times my body feels as if I just got up too quickly, but I haven't made any sudden movements.  My guess is something about my diet (I don't eat enough fruits and veggies) is at least partially to blame.  It could also be something on the spiritual side of things.

The child I have been working with has shown so much improvement and successfully been able to participate in normal activities.  The boundaries I've put into place haven't healed the hurts, but they have motivated this child to make positive choices when it comes to behavior in the classroom.  A step in the right direction.  Hopefully when the school year starts, it will be a fresh start.

My husband is improving.  We enjoyed a nice date night and actually stayed at a hoity-toity hotel for a night out...next time we'll hit a Best Western or something more practical. :0)  There wasn't much to do that didn't cost an arm and a leg...no swimming pool and no continental breakfast.  It was a very comfortable room and it was nice to not have to worry about the children or the dog for a night.  We went to bed early and slept in too...very relaxing!

I have a really awesome study bible my parents got me a few years ago.  It explains how to study the bible and I have read through part of that article and am getting into 1st Timothy right now.  Timothy was a young leader, the two books are how to live the Christian life and I figure that is probably a good starting point for me to seek the Lord.  He has been faithful and provided for me, He hasn't left me.  I miss the joy, in my first few months of my new job I was constantly rejoicing in the ways He was working.  He is still working and doing good things, but I feel less in tune with Him.  God's word says to not grow weary in doing good...I'm afraid that is the path I am on.  I am fighting the good fight and growing weary.  Not weary of doing good, but weary of the constant barrage of struggles.  Weary of people issues, weary of the responsibility on my shoulders, and physically weary.  I'm praying for a full refreshing -ASAP!