Inquiring of God

The past several weeks have been full of setbacks.  The program I lead is bursting at the seams with children, a wonderful thing.  But we are losing employees faster than we can keep them.  My office staff and I have tried to figure out what we can do to help this problem and are coming up with blanks.  I've been crying out to the Lord, but He hasn't revealed any clear direction or change needed.

One employee lost her childcare and couldn't make the schedules work.
Another employee had a family emergency.
Another employee's extended family is in chaos and needed her at home.
Another employee made the difficult decision to stay home with her child while her husband is deployed.
And last but not least, one is leaving to have a baby.

None of the reasons were due to the center.  None of them due to the job environment, but I also haven't found replacements yet.  Please keep us in your prayers.  I can't help but think it is a spiritual thing.

I heard part of a sermon today on the radio about David inquiring of God in 1 Samuel 30.  The very part of the bible I have been reading at night.  He said that in previous chapters David had been acting in his flesh based on how his emotions led him.  But for some reason in this chapter, David stopped and inquired of the Lord how to proceed and the Lord not only answered him but told him what would happen.

I have been "staying strong" and doing whatever needs to be done to survive this time of shortage in employees at work.  My office staff and I have all spent time working in classrooms.  I think I have been acting in my flesh...not intentionally ignoring the Lord, but just reacting in the moment because there often isn't time to do much more than whisper a prayer as I step into action...and to be honest, I haven't even been acknowledging the Lord much.

It is hard.  I struggle to find the Lord.  Many times I feel like I am talking to a brick wall even though I know better than that.  I know He hears my prayers.  I've been asking for revelation, provision, and an understanding of His will.  One of my employees made the comment that I must be having an awesome experience with the Lord to still be here (others would have run away by now).  I told them I am struggling more than it may appear.  It has crossed my mind more than once to leave this crazy job...but I don't have peace about that.  I daydream of a life where work doesn't invade my home life. 

For whatever reason, God has me where I am.  Pray that I am able to do what He has called me to do, and to receive the wisdom and discernment to know what that is.