I'm becoming bolder in my faith, which I find ironic. My personality has always been to sit back and agree with the person speaking out for their faith, to avoid conflict at all costs, and to only speak when necessary. Now I find myself speaking out to respected 'elders' (not that they are elderly, but my elders in age) to bring the Truth into focus. I'm very open about my beliefs on social websites and the fear of persecution and suffering no longer detains me from speaking out. It's also ironic because as I am becoming bolder in my faith, I have been going through some difficulties in my faith at the same time.
A new aspect of living with Cancer that my hubby and I are discovering are more subtle...changes in his hormones, dealing with depression, anger, fatigue...we are learning that as 'one' in our marriage, whatever negativity is going on in each others lives spiritually or emotionally has a huge impact on our spouse's ability to stay positive. There are times when we aren't in the right frame of mind to discuss anything, but when we get to the point where we are both calm and open about what is going on, we not only grow closer to each other, but we find solutions and work together as a team to make things better. God is so good, isn't he? A good friend recently told me, "As bad as things get, they could always be worse. As good as things are, they could always be better." I liked that.
I would love your prayers for our family, marriage, and healing (spiritually and emotionally). Dealing with these issues are more damaging than the cancer was. I know the Lord is working through this also. I wonder what He is doing and the awesome things that will come of this...
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